Just because

2007-11-14T14:39:00.000+07:00

I'M BACK!!!!!!!!!!
people i know you missed me;)

Going to America and coming back i visited 7 airports in 4 different countries in 2 continents.And through all the running for our lives and weird taiwanese guys i've made it back in one piece and seriously jet lagged.

The plane from memphis to denver was delayed and our connecting flight from Denver to San Francisco was leaving in 45 mins.By the time we got to Denver the flight was so delayed that when we got off the plane we had -5mins to run 21 gates down to catch our flight to San Francisco and Aunt. Doreen was wearing heels!But they held the flight a while and we made it for final call.Whew, i was shaking so badly on the plane i was begining to think something was wrong, well technically there was but i meant other than missing our flight.But miracles happen:)
Tomorrow i have a dg outing at east coast, have to find something to make...hmmm. also i have to make up 8 sessions of 3 tuitions in a week. HOW HOW HOW?????i still have to get to school to collect the form so that i can go to Italy.Sigh, it's so packed holidays are so stressful, i'll be so jet lagged for all my tuitions.By the time i get over this i'll be leaving for spain and it'll start all over again.
Cheryl's coming home tonight,yay, i'm dead. oh well better prepare now.

2007-10-26T19:58:00.000+07:00

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!

OMG i had the worst-best-weirdest day of my life.
Let's start from school...
My entire class(the bestest class on earth) spent the day playing wu liao games like double wacko, caterpillar,MUSICAL CHAIRS!!! Haha so retarded. So we planned the next class party( which i can't make:( ) and then at the end of the day we had to arrange all the tables for some exam and then Issy said we should have a group huddle. So anyone could say anything about 2 Pe then as Jillian was talking we all started crying. And for some reason someone went to the staff room to call Mr. Tee cause we wanted to say thanks and stuff. Now imagine you're a 20-something male teacher in a girls' school.
Some girls from your form class come to the staff room red faced, teary eyed and call you down, what can you do? so you go. You HEAR your class before you get there. When you open the door the entire class is crying and hugging each other. They all look at you. Then someone says something, it's the class rep. " Mr. Tee we just want to thank you for all the things you've done for us this year, and that our class wouldn't be where it is right now if not for you." She says in between sobs. "well girls," you begin " you have been my first form class and i think you have all shown true class spirit." They start crying again.- did i says something wrong- you think. Unsure of what to do, you quietly slip out amidst the wailing of 38 girls.
That's probably how Mr. Tee felt.Haha. So after we cried ourselves dry for another half hour the class did our class cheer and sang some songs. But May Ann, Issy, Salome, Abby, Pris and I had a 3NGLES meeting. But i really really REALLY wanted to go with the class cause i would be missing the class party, but the meeting was 2 hours and ended at 3.30. So we redid the time table for the main event and discovered we had to come up with another proposal cause they wanted to change the format of the competition! Plus come up with a P6 "mini 3NGLES event" all by Monday!!! By 5 we were still there, stoning, but we couldn't leave cause we still had stuff to do. Nette told me that they were leaving at 6 and i thought i wouldn't be able to go and i couldn't help it so i started crying. when we could finally go our class had gone bowling at Kim Seng center. Only Issy came with me, Sally, May Ann and Abby all couldn't go and Pris couldn't possibly leave.
Issy and i were so excited but we kinda didn't what floor it was on,and when we got there everyone was screaming(!) and all the stress just faded.Then we quickly went to change and bowled till 6 30. Issy and i were so hungry cause we spent the whole lunch time crying haha. So we ate seriously over priced fried rice with egg. Shona ate my egg yolk and it was very hot so she was like walking around with her mouth open and stuff!!! Every time someone got a strike or something the whole class would cheer, i think we were being a public nuisance even after that long winded talk by Mrs. i-forgot-who. So funny.I got 87 or something like that Shona got the highest 90 something NOT FAIR.
Now is the weird part. When we finished, i was planning to go to Nette's house so we ran to Cassandra's car cause she was going to fetch us to Orchard MRT so all of us 7 squooshed into the back of a 5 seater haha. Then i called my parents to see if they could fetch me from Thomson Plaza cause i had to run some errands. Haha everyone in the car could hear me bargaining with my dad!When we go to the station i found out i lost my wallet!!! MAMA as could have guessed i freaked out! I called everyone Cassandra, in case i left it in her car, Vicki who was with Germ , Cheryl and Nadirah at the bowling. They went back to the bowling alley to help me look and missed their bus!!!!Meanwhile I'm stuck at the train station without a wallet and EZlink, thank god i had my hand phone. Erica, Nette and Issy were with me. They guy was nice and when i explained to him i lost my wallet he let me through. Then when we got to the platform we didn't know which direction to take! The train door were closing and we ran for it but Issy was taking the other direction, bye Issy. Now my wallet still hasn't been found and i was panicking, Nette was helping me call everyone.I still had to take a bus to Thomson Plaza so when we got to Novena ( Nette and Erica's stop ) told them i needed money but the train door were already open so Erica quickly stuffed a $2 note in my hand and Nette was like "good luck" haha.We always cut it too close.
When i got to J8 Vicki called me to tell me she found it!!!! And she told me all four of them missed their bus!!! So owe them lunch haha!
At the interchange...
i had to change the $2 note for coins so i went up to this lady "Excuse me. do you have change for $2s?" she looked at me apprehensively,"um.. sure" she smiled. But she only had $1.70 in coins so i just switched it and lost $0.30 haha.
so when i finally got to Thomson Plaza and got into the car i saw my new orange specks!!!! ahh haha anyway I've been typing for too long. but i love you Vicki, Cheryl, Germaine and Nadirah for missing your bus and finding my wallet!
I love you Issy for coming with me to the weird place to meet the class. I love you Erica and Nette for coming with my on the train, calling everyone and lending me money. I love you May Ann for standing my pmsing for the whole year. I love you Pris for humoring my retardedness. I love you Abby for NOT abandoning me at Raymond's. I love you shona for eating my egg yolk for me. and I love you Cassandra for giving me a ride and helping me look for my wallet. Oh ya and that weird lady who gave me some change.

2007-10-10T14:54:00.000+07:00

WOO HOO!
Ok not woo hoo but results are back, got 4 As, 1B and 2 Cs highest is math lowest chinese(duh) haha but it was quite ok lah, only one A1 but it's ok(nee). sheesh but life's regaining all it's precious order again after exams.The monotonous mind numbing rythm, but since i got an A1 for math i dont have to quit Raymond's and i dont have to go to that Bukit Timah hill person yay!

I tell you, when people do well i do badly and when people do badly i do well. Is that like sadisitc or someting? And i got 20/25 for english essay, i wasnt expecting it though i thought it was one of the worst compos i had ever written so the examiner must be blind or has seriously been deprived of good literature. nope nope be grateful now. My tuition teacher is like down stairs so i'm hiding from her upstairs haha. Already got scolded for chinese.

Great Eastern is in 21 days and i havent started training yet! I'll be missing friday's training cause i have choir! sheesh man, but we'll be voting and i dont know who to vote for?! Nevermind i shall put my mind to rest and go bake something good. bye!

2007-10-03T13:26:00.000+07:00

Exams almost over! All that's left is English and who has to study for that?! yay!
So i went to island creamery with Sarah and Vicki and Yan Tong and Serena. All toget her we ran across 2 traffic lights and one red man out of 4 haha. Cause vicki and i saw the greenman blinking so sarah said 'run?' and Vicki and i were like ok! So we were running and just when i got to the end of the pavement, the thing turned red! So what does that voice in your head tell you to do? STOP! But not vicki, so when i stopped Vicki crashed into me and serena crashed into her! And this 3 person collision was obviously a high impact one so i got pushed on to the road! And Serena and Sarah just ran across!!!
Then was this guy (i think he was new) at Island and he was helping Min wei to scoop the ice cream and he didnt do it very well so the thing flew! haha it was so funny! Then vicki and i couldnt decide what to eat so we tried like 3 flavours and in the end we bought a mud pie! haha i think the woman was quite fed up.Anyway we all ended up eating a mud pie which was really good! It had 3 layers of ice cream and a cookie base(and when vicki tried to poke it,it flew on to the floor! haha) But Serena didnt buy anything cause she was broke so vicki lent her some money, and she bought burnt caramel which i thought was pretty eww. After that we spent like 15 mins taking 'artistic' photos of popsicle sticks! actually they were quite nice, i'll post them some other time.
Tomorrow half of 2 PE is crashing to Abby's house and we're having a sushi party which was quite random (i think it has something to do with last week when we were having pe and i got really high with vicki so we went to everyone saying sushi!) yay so fun woo hoo going to slack now! Bye

2007-09-09T19:56:00.000+07:00

YES! i can finally post. There was someting wrong with my com. Argh.

STRESS STRESS STRESS STESS STRESS. MAMA. sigh.

hmm if you think about it mugging makes me feel good, like you're doing something.Spent the whole holidays mugging and mugging and mugging.But today i went to west coast with the youth to play ultimate frisbee! yay! too bad cheryl and i didnt get to go last week, they played captain's ball!!!!!! maaaaa.sigh. i dont want to go back to school! only two more weeks till exams!!! stress stress stress. hmmm math test tomorrow. tsk tsk. must study.I've been on a reading spree or something.I've practically read all the books worth reading in my house in a week. Though i still have a few more to finish off... must be the stress. sigh.anyway gotta study bye:)

2007-08-20T18:19:00.000+07:00

i know i can't go on like this!

OMG what's happening to me! why me! but i'm...it's like i'm feeding off everyone's suffering and it's just adding up.Like every thread of my life is coming loose! i cant say 'why me' it's too selfish. But i cant help it, everything i thought was forever is disappearing! There's really no such thing as forever, things are just coming undone. i cant list out the problems i'm sure, and most are out of my control. But just to fix those that are in my control,it seems like a dream it's so...hard. My pillar of strength is gone and i have to be her's.

How can i do this, the least i could do is of course be a best friend, but i'm just not good at that, and i just feel so helpless, so useless. I really cant, i know, it's a sure fact, things WILL get better. But it's sure like hell waiting for it to get better. I know i shouldnt be the one to complain, what's my pain compared to her's but i feel so small. Like i just cant contain and up hold all these responsiblities, i think my brain's about to burst at the seems! i cant, and i cant tell her, she's already enduring more than me how could i worsen her load? what kind of friend would i be? But what kind of friend am i now?!i;m the worst kind of human being. It's like my little world was so fragile, just waiting for a disaster, and here it is. and everyone's just running around in circles screaming,how? how? i just cant do ANYTHING everything's just out of it. and i cant do anything about it.i dont know.

2007-07-30T19:50:00.000+07:00

ok haha been too lazy to post, but i shall post now.

Concert was super good!!!!We started singing random songs at the end, and did the SC cheer like supper fast ah ha:)

And i just went to Abby's house to make the home ec thingy then we soaked our feet in her pool:) (nee)haha then we tried to cross over to the other side without getting wet, and then...i got stuck ah ha.The home ec thingy was really good mama! haha and Abby's sis and mom made muffins with pink icing(nee)haha
you know what, i'm still to lazy to post haha ok then byeee

2007-07-20T21:24:00.000+07:00

OK! here's the happier post!!!

Today the concert was SO good man(well thats what people said but we can do better)and and and Ms Heng came! ah ha.But we screwed up quite abit, like for the choral we were mostly too sharp and too fast. Sigh but it was still good.

It was racial harmony day so Abby came to school wearing this thing ah ha very funny. Also since today was the concert day all the choir girls got to go home early! yay! so the only subjects i had today were Home Econs and history(which Ms Kavita used to set up the amphi for the Racial Harmony celebrations so mostly my class just camwhored around the whole amphi)
meaning NO SCHOOL!!!. Very tired. and my hair is crispy(cause of all the hair spray)

You know before the concert i was So panicky mama, but then again in the end it was all ok:) nee.Have Chinese and Raymond tomorrow i dont want!!!! dont want dont want dont want!!! especially chinese man my tuition teacher is going to KILL me!!! i havent done her work for 3 weeks!!! and on monday is my math test(which by the way i'm going to fail cause i havent studied) and sunday is my birthday. man it's going ot be real hectic and plus after that mo more choir stuff. where is choir when you need it!!!sigh oh! wait this is suppose to be a happy post. IN that case...
bye!!!! i'm so sleepy...i think i'll bake
BTW i lost my diary!!! very sad man.

2007-07-17T19:05:00.000+07:00

DAMN STRESSED!!!!
now now no swearing on your own blog. you're right. SHEESH i'm like talking to myself!!! too stressed. you'll never guess what happened today man!!!!

i was like in my sound of music costume (tartan skirt, short tartan skirt, puls this tank top over a collared tee. at least you know how ridiculous i looked) and then i ran off for raymond's with my school shoes no socks, to catch a cab.Not to mention leaving my kebaya and jazz pant behind.It was like $10 for the taxi! and i sat in raymond's for 15 mins and then his stupid house had a black out! like what!!! so he sent us home, well we begged to go home, but anyway. so i was like so tired that i just took a taxi home. again. like what!!! i rushed down here all the way looking so stupid and i go home after 15 mins like what man!!! oh mama i was so frustrated!!! ma! but i'm like quite happy that i could go home lah.

i had choir today and the day after and the day after and the day after and the day after.I live choir eat sleep breathe choir whatever you can think of lah.As much as i love choir it's just too much i cant take it!!! maaaaaaaaaamamamamamamamamamamamamamamama

Sigh. man it's ok i guess. the concert is worth it lah. I cant wait till my birthday. but it'll be rather... bad:( cause like concert concert birthday math block test. sigh. but things get better, they always do:) so i'll wait till then:) and give you ppl a happier post:) yay! haha bye:)

2007-07-12T18:19:00.000+07:00

HEY PEOPLE!!!!

I've been too lazy to post. but now i'm posting haha. ok.
sigh i've been really tired it's been like

school

Choir

Raymond

Choir

piano

Choir

Chinese

Choir

Sleep

Choir

I'm drowning in Choir, as much as i LOVE choir too much of a good thing is NOT good.
And i look so stupid dancing!!! NO No but i still have to do it. Sigh.
at least baking is a stress relieve but then who's going to eat it? Sigh.

I went shopping for my tartan skirt today at far east. Sylvia came with me:) thanks. We searched the whole place, very tired.Quite funny like go into a shop.sweep through.No skirt.leave.haha Then i came home and made the rice crispie thingy, i changed the recepie. Now Cheryl is eating it like there's no tomorrow haha

Tomorrow is excel fest but i still have to go to school for choir we have to perform. Sigh
Then i have to go to bugis for geog hist project. Sigh
Next day choir full dress. Sigh
Next Next day, Church(bake apple pie! nee), raymond, dinner with my long distance cousin.Sigh
Next Next Next day CHINESE TEST!!!! die die die. Sigh
Choir concert next week!!! panic and run around in circles. And my birthday!yay! but its ruined cause everyone will be so busy. Concert, concert, Birthday ,Block test. tsk tsk. so sad but nvm. ITS ok.Everyone must come for the concert!!! (except the S.G) ok thats mean but still.

just when i thought my life was undercontrol its spins AGAIN!!! abby'll understand. OH OH Twilight is sooooo good man i love it!!!!!!!!!! nothing can compare! Edward cullen is so so so so HOT.( and for all you people who ask how we know. you have to read the book!) But new moon so sad i always cry. Stephenie Meyer writes so well!!!~its like i'm there~like she was there! its just too cool. it tried writing like her, but her attention to detail is unrivaled.

well then i'm going to walk my dogs byeeeee!

2007-06-26T20:31:00.000+07:00

oh mama it's been so hectic. The entire last week of the hoildays was filled with choir everyday. plus i had to do my film studies project. and you know finish up last min work. AND study for my science block test.

I had choir camp on thurs to fri 24 hours of choir games and choir. But still it was fun. The teachers totally went over budget, catered EVERYTHING breakfast lunch dinner...must be the Mrs Low using up school resources...so busy. not to mention youth sunday and piano auditions... i was singing so i had to stay for both services on sunday i tried to study during the second service but it didnt work.i was so tired.

But yesterday i made stuff for Nette's b'dae which i missed...cause i had choir so vic and i made her this snow globe and an apple pie that said 'Nette'. The snow globe scarred my kitchen for life cause now there's glitter everywhere. But today i brought coke for Nette, may ann, vic, Erica and abby. We went to waffle town and we saw Mr. Tee like OMG oh oh and the J to the N guy haha he saw vic and i and walked out hahaha so super funny BUT not before saying hi to Nette...:)Then i had to go for choir till about 5. 30. And Abby saved me once again i almost missed her. *sigh* and alot of weird things happened at Raymond's which i shant relate... and i got home at 8.40 so darn tired... so i shall finish up my work now...
Byeeee

2007-06-15T14:41:00.000+07:00

HIIII!!!! Just came back from church camp!!! I dun wanna leaveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee nooooooooooooo mama so fun!!! i'm so sad now i have to come back to Singapore and do all my school work in my normal boring life:( It went like this.

Day 1

Arrived at church and left about 10am
Arrived in JB SUPER fast but we had to wait for the room to be ready. We took a 3 bedroom apartment and shared it with my grandfather. Then we went swimming at about 4... you know after lunch and the briefing and the exploring. Swimming is about the BEST thing you can do there there's this really cool slide and we played captain's ball. It was so super fun!!!
After that we went for dinner and theme talk.
At night we went to Alethea's room and got high on nail polish fumes haha.

Day 2

Woke up abit late and went for breakfast, then we went for the theme talk. The speaker was Dr. Alvin Low and he has this accent like dracula(but i shouldnt say that) ya but anyway after the theme talk we had discussion time. Which was fun too, then we went for team builders hosted by my mom. We had to do lots of stupid things. ok and enough about that. Then we......... RUSHED OF FOR SWIMMING!!! Which was again very fun and this time i played volley ball for the first time in my life. I learnt that...
The volley ball is hard
Because its hard when it hits you it hurts...REAL BAD
So don't get hit
But since you HAVE to hit the ball you should hit it properly
So...LEARN HOW TO HIT IT PROPERLY BEFORE YOU PLAY
but still i survived and after that we played captain's ball against the guys, and for i dunno what reason the guys team just got bigger and bigger till some of them had to come to our side. So Alethea gave them girl's names. and then dinner and soul care.
That night we went to Alethea's room and we played pig haha i was losing super bad.

Day 3

woke up late AGAIN and rushed down for breakfast. Alethea and cheryl were teaching the juniors so it was just Hen, Hsui Chin, Brenda and I. That day was free time so we planned to go shopping after the theme talk but we found out that the shopping place thingy was 45 mins way. So in the end Hen, Hsui chin, abd I stayed in the hotel to swim for 4 hours while the rest went shopping. And you guessed it we played captain's ball again and went on the slide hundred's of times with Ting and Jeanette. Then we got bored and Hsui Chin went to play volley ball (on land) so Hen and i got out and bathed but when Cheryl and Alethea came back we went swimming again haha. That night was youth night so we sat there in the ball room talking baout our parents. Later we went to Jia 's room and played polar bear but by the time we went there it was quite late so we weren't there for too long. But later we slept over in Alethea's room.

Day 4

Last full day.
Hen and i helped out with the juniors which was super fun like the senior youths lead the worship which was sooo funny. After lunch we had team builders again which was like amazing race. We had a durian party and cause it was rainning s0 bad the hotel got this van thingy to ferry us from the hotel building to the place. Of course we PLANNED to swim that day, BUT it was raining so bad that we couldn't swim. so we decided to go to the jacuzzi. The last day of church camo and it rains!!!! The last day we have left to swim and it rains so super heavily!!! Like WHY!!! So we met Ting and Jeanette on the way and convinced them to join us but then we also met Tong Hann who said that the jacuzzi was disgusting so Ting and Jeanette left with him to play billards while Hen Brenda and i went to the jacuzzi.After a while we got bored amd walked around we played volley ball with Yi Ling and Hsui Chin for a while but we got bored again and walked aroud some more and saw the guys playing billards and soccer. So Hen and I decided to leave and went to bath sigh a day wasted cause of the rain! i cant believe it sigh. It was praise and dedication night so the juniors and the chinese ministry performed very fun. Then we went to Jia's room again and played some stuff we played the name game and prank called pei-de it was like super funny. We also played the water game and i had to drink 2 cups of water and we made face masks. Oh and Tong hann had like this tub of melted ice cream which was SO gross.

Day 5

Last day very sad . packed up and went for morning worship till 10.
After that everyone went swimming, but we couldnt cause we were taking the 'coach' back and it was leaving at 10 30 everyone who was driving were only leaving at 12 or later so they could swim. I was so super sad!!! mama i dun wanna go home!!! but things cant change so we left and took alot of pics so now and back here and have to do my school work so bye

2007-06-09T08:58:00.000+07:00

Hey!!!

2nd week of June Hols... sigh

stressed and dying...no choir and no school very sian everyday do projects and study for block test sigh.

leaving for church camp on Monday havent even started packing!!! I duwanna go!!! too many things left undone in Singapore sigh... nvm. Must deal with it. Must do well for block test cause my projects are down the drain haha. kk now must go for tuition. Bye

2007-06-04T17:38:00.000+07:00

Holidays are perhaps the WORST idea for recreation EVER!!! the suck especially the june hols man. i cant wait to get back to school. Theres no school but theres no fun only , projects, work ,revision, study and more projects. We(sc girls) are no an army of super women ok?! we need a life too so please LAY OFF THE PROJECTS our hearts cant take 30% of our CA2 hanging on ONE STUPID INCREDULOUSLY HARD GEOG-HIST PROJECT (plus WHAT does film studies have to do with english??!!!) mama i love school. This is soooo twisted man. every week is so full i need a personal assistant?! ok so i'm being drama... i'm being stressed MAMA what happened to mercy in this world???!!! sheesh if i had a fairly sharp object....*sigh*

-cherries and bauble heads nee haha

2007-05-28T21:52:00.000+07:00

AHHHH!!!! class party so FUNNNNNN. I gotta get the pics from abby. SO so fun so fun so funnn!!! i went at like 5 and met Erica and Annie at the bus stop then we went to Salome's house when Nadirah came cause we didn't know how to get there, and on the way there we met Richard and Issy and Salome.
Ya and then we swam after like waiting for everyone to change, First i had to wait for Nette then Abby. Then i got pushed/jumped into the pool(i cant really remember) Oh and Nette tried to push me into the pool,cause she cant swim for... some reasons. Ms Lee, Ms Lim, and Ms Cheong came OH and Mr Tee!!! He like brought his girlfriend!!!! Like OH MAMA!!! Any way we were like trying to impress her haha by like offering then food and being really polite haha so stupid AND we KNOW he was tell her about us!!!
After that i was like fighting with Vic to push her into the pool. haha 5 outof 6 times i won HAH!!! and the time i lost... Nette pushed me. When Vicki falls in she like scratches you REAL hard my wrist is scared. Oh and we played chicken and net ball and truth or dare but then it became girl talk. Very funny, we started with crushes then embarrassing stuff then guys in general then Se Langs. So funny and alot of stuff about Indian dudes haha cause of Jillian. And we took lotsa pics. The next one will be at Abby's house at the end of the year. Haha i LOVE 2 PE!!!
- Yay we're PE-licious

2007-05-26T16:25:00.000+07:00

I Changed my blogskin again:) Its abit emo but i like it. and i love the song on the front so ya. And the colours are so...i dunno i just love it. Holidays just dont feel like holidays, i'm like so bored, sigh.

I'm going for shakespear in the park later; a midsummer night's dream.Its my favourite shakespearean play. haha but now... i'm bored. So... sigh, sleot at 2 last night so tired. The i have a class party on monday:) i have to bring pink lemonade yay:) Oh ya and i have to bring an ice lemon tea for May Ann cause she's not in Singapore. She went to Africa 0.o like wow, for a mission trip. haha any way getting sian bye.

- you, me... dont you see?

2007-05-22T20:46:00.000+07:00

Stupid pet rocket. They expect you to get to get 3 1.5L bottles in 2 days!!! What do they think we are?!! Rescued refugees from the Sahara desert?! Sheesh if they told us earlier... then. So i brought the bottle of sprite to school to share with ppl though Vicki took most of it.Choir ended late so i missed abby and she had to turn around to fetch me, i dunno what i'd do without her. Then i had to go to Mr. Low's with a stupid bottle sticking out of my BAG!!!! Then half way through the class Mr. Low asked me a question and i couldnt see the board, and he said quote " so you've been blind all this while!!!" Then i had to move away from my sanctuary at the back of the class and sit next to someone i dont know. Next i travelled 1 hr to get home all with a bag full of books cause Mr. Tee didn't tell us that we had to bring everything home by today. And YES i'm a complain queen. DEAL WITH IT.
Anyway on a not so pms-ish note i found this really cute childish stupid video but i dunno how to put the thingy on my blog soo... too bad for you all. Class party on monday and piano on thursday i dunno how i'm gonna get to Stirling so i'll probably just die. sigh so tired. My mom's giving me a lecture on why we shouldn't kill ourselves if we do badly for our tests. Sigh. Then i just said that parents give us hell when we dont do well. and she was like "sure so we torture you and lock you up, we treat you so well so dont give us this kind of excuse" i do believe i've made my point. - Making you understand is one of the hardest things i've tried to do

2007-05-18T18:15:00.000+07:00

Tomorrow is like open house!!! Mama spent most of my choir practise time helping the science lab prepare for the stuff. Its all so cool i'm doing DNA extraction and helping the chem lab do the demo for stuff. My mom's coming home tonight...yay!
There's bible study plus i have a history test on monday and my whole saturday is taken up. Sigh i'm so gonna fail. Plus cause my whole sat is taken up i'm gonna miss Mr. Low's so i have to do a make up class before tuesday. But that only leaves sun and mon to make up and there's no sec 2 class on sun and the sunday class is at siglap...so i dunno... well anyway my life is crumbling before my eyes and my hands are too weak to pick up the pieces... ARGH!!! Too emo sigh ok gotta go before i become more emo

2007-05-16T19:25:00.000+07:00

Hi! I changed my blogskin! I was choosing between this one and May Ann's one but i chose this one so, sorry May Ann but your's was nice too:)
I totally FAILED for chinese oral today like WHAT i didnt even prepare and i finished my batik:) yay

I'm bored so i'm gonna upload some random pics haha.

Some jelly fishes that i totally fell in love with

My mom's B'dae at her friend's house

This WAS my puppy but now it belong's to my mom's bestfriend:( cause i couldn't keep it (bigger):(

He's called oreo

haha So cute.

No more pics too lazy byeeee

2007-05-14T16:41:00.000+07:00

I'm so happy!!!! I did a good thing today! I helped this blind guy in our school to get to the bus stop opposite RTC!!! Haha so cool, he comes to our school to give the teachers massage therapy. Now we know where our school fees go to. But still, I LOST MY TAB!!!!! ( Vicki will understand) i have to change my blogskin, but i dont like anything. I think i'n gonna fail for lit! Maaaamama sigh cant be helped. I had such a busy weekend, like tuition and tuition on saturday, then i went to buy stuff for my sis's PW. And after that i went to my mom's friend's house to celebrate her best friend's b'dae, i went home at like 12 going to 1. Obviously no time to study, on sunday all the usual stuff church piano then mothers' day dinner. So busy!!! Oh and i didnt get into IP but i think even if i did i wouldn't go. Cant bear to leave SC, no way no way. Haha SC girl from head to toe.
-I love the way i know what he's saying when he doesn't say anything

2007-05-10T21:28:00.000+07:00

AHHHHH!!!! Mothers' day is like sunday and i dunno what to get for my mom... sigh. Come to think of it i always stress on what to get for my mom but not for my dad. I guess i've never really been close to him. Its not that i dont want to but he makes it hard to, like how can you be close to someone who directly calls you , useless, the cause of all family problems and the ruddest in all the family, he calls you stupid and hopeless, lesser than your sister, lesser than your DOG!!!
I remember when i was younger i use to cry myself to sleep when i get scolded and my dad would beat me cause i wouldn't stop crying. Then one day we saw a mother scolding her son cause he was crying guess what my father said? " i don't understand why parents scold their children for crying..." I was practically screaming inside, its come to point where i don't want to be close to him. I know he cares but he has to show it, like Mrs Goh said your not judged on effort, you're judged on performance. Its cold i know but if he judges me on performance i will treat him likewise. Its sad, its crazy and its out of control but it's that way.

2007-05-07T21:35:00.000+07:00

Must say not much going on work piling up, and the usual stuff. Now we're doing poetry and i LOVE IT!!!! so fun ok and then we're doing some songs for open house and there's one called 'The Rose' the tune is abit dead but the lyrics are SO like deep i dunno. Then there's this cute poem called Mushrooms apparently is has a not so cute meaning but i have yet to understand ooh so fun.

The Rose
Some say love it is a river that drowns the tender reed
Some say love it is a razor that leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love it is a hunger an endless aching need
I say love it is a flower and you it's only seed

It's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken who cannot seem to give
and the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live

When the night has been too lonely
and the road has been too long
and you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong

Just remember in the winter
far beneath the bitter snows
lies the seed that with the sun's love
in the spring becomes the rose

Mushrooms
Overnight, very
Whitely, discreetly,
Very quietly

Our toes, our noses
Take hold on the loam,
Acquire the air.

Nobody sees us,
Stops us, betrays us;
The small grains make room.

Soft fists insist on
Heaving the needles,
The leafy bedding,

Even the paving.
Our hammers, our rams,
Earless and eyeless,

Perfectly voiceless,
Widen the crannies,
Shoulder through holes. We

Diet on water,
On crumbs of shadow,
Bland-mannered, asking

Little or nothing.
So many of us!
So many of us!

We are shelves, we are
Tables, we are meek,
We are edible,

Nudgers and shovers
In spite of ourselves.
Our kind multiplies:

We shall by morning
Inherit the earth.
Our foot's in the door.

--Sylvia Plath

Its about feminism and how women are slowly gaining equality with men, though we go un-noticed like the mushrooms that come out over night, because Nobody see us, stops us! betrays us! The way they beliveve that we are not a threat. But we are still gentel quiet soft and insisting. Yet we grow and soon we will be seen and reconised. This shall be my third favourite poem after Macavity: The Mystery Cat and Jellicle Cats. Coinsidentally both are by TS Eliot:)

2007-05-04T20:35:00.000+07:00

I ran the last run today, IN THE RAIN!!! But it was quite cool, cause i wasn't as hot as the last time and not so many people ran. Except for the fact that Vicki was angry at me for abandoning her and running ahead, it was better i suppose, though i feel quite bad:( I got like 13.55 which was a great improvement from the last time. And... Abby might have gotten a D!!! You would know what that meant if i had told you, but i cant tell you cause this is public, you people who are in the loop should know:)
And finally the IP trauma is over cause i sent in my aplication TODAY!!! yes haha no more references and weird stuff like that! WOO HOO. Now if cheryl could learn to SHUT UP and stop being so annoying,hmm i think i have to train her, she's not really human( i think).

2007-05-01T15:24:00.000+07:00

Ahhhhh Mama!!!!
Everyone's trying to convince me to take IP but i'm not too sure. I wanna go to RJC but that means going to RGS (unless i go to RI which, by the way happenssss to be a BOYS' school; meaning that i HAVE to go to RGS) and i dont want to go to RGS. So i can go to some other JC right???? WRONG!!! why am i taking IP? To go to RJC so if i dont go to RJC then i shouldn't take IP. Why not go to RGS then??? Hmmm... maybe its cause RGS IS SC'S BIGGEST ENEMY!!!! thats why. Why should i waste 2 sc-less years in some super masculine school???? that i dont want to go to???? so i should just stay in SC cause there's no way you can make me go to RGS. I'd rather be tickled half to death by a bunch of deranged squirrels and left to die the other half on a deserted island full of termites than go to RGS. Sadly my dear mother and i dont quite see eye to eye. Well i tell you she cant make me!!!! And i have to write an essay!!!( to get into VJC) well i dont really have to worry its not like i'm acctually going to pass the entrance test anyway, so i'll cross that bridge when i get to it. Till then hmm... where are those squirrels???

2007-04-28T15:00:00.000+07:00

Mr Low's maths class is weird but its kinda fun. I kinda enroled myself in his class and i tell you he is so funny. But i must agree with Abby he's mad he had this wierd thing about sibera and he was like trying to force her to register for this IP test cause he thinks she's smart. Its quite fun and his house is so cool but i get a freaky vibe from it. Oh oh and theres ANOTHER whole lot of umm... ACSI guys!!!! like sheesh they're everywhere maybe singapore is just small no offence if you are one Maybe i shouldnt say. But you smart people will get it . i love tuition well group tuition its like so fun(i am not a nerd). But my maths is like SO bad so i need it. Another on tuesday so good luck to me i hope i survive. haha

2007-04-27T16:42:00.000+07:00

Haha i ran with Abby today!!! and she passed! So now i owe her a dinner well i changed it to a lunch. Two runs down and 1 to go! Oh ya and i went out with the choir girls today, so fun! We went to Taka then we went to Top Shop...OH and i saw like this really cool note book shop with these really cool note books and we went to Kino where i was abandoned! cause i was blur i guess. But the note books were really nice i dunno why they were just plain note books and they were cloth covered and there was this really nice brown one. I LOVE brown. And there was this poem holder thingy AND this really really long ring book with black pages so nice i want .... I want i want i want!!!But they were like really ex!!! $49.00!!! well the one i wanted... they were like SOOOOO nice.
Oh ya and on the way back, Hen and i were like waving at the people on the highway, and there were these workers who were like staring at us!!! so embarrassing !!! but it was like quite fun. And then in the end we wrote this thingy that said "HAVE A NICE DAY :)" and we waved to all the people and Hen did this thumbs up thing. About 7 people waved back or saw us this old guy did a thumbs-up back and this woman waved back really vigorously. Haha making the world a better place one person at a time!!! haha so fun.
--Free smiles take one

2007-04-26T20:06:00.000+07:00

I just did my NAPHA today and it was like SO bad. I 'de-proved' ;if there is such a word, on EVERYTHING!!! I'm getting old!!! NO! i'm too young to be old. well then now its over... who cares! I'm running with Abby tomorrow... i feel fat... nvm i can burn off all the calories tomorrow.
Now i'm watching "The Nanny" i LOVE The Nanny its like so funny. Well i dont have much to do so i'm like posting... about.... nothing. ok so then um... bye!!!(:

2007-04-23T19:48:00.000+07:00

GOLD man GOLD!!!!
YES!!! we made it gold!!! today there were only 2 golds one was SC the brilliant the beautiful and the ever Sooooo elegant KEBAYA BABES!!!!! haha and the other was (anti climax) TKGS with gold honours. But we're still happy!!! haha!!! yes man!!! All the choirs were like" their choir uniform is so nice' and it is.... haha. YES!!! it is. And... there were like these tourist taking pictures of us cause we're so pretty!!!! Haha we're so good man. Next time we'll be better!!! and better! and better till we're so good.But there was temasek that was also so very good but i dunno why they didnt do so well. but nvm cause we did!!!
When we got the results like we were screaming like mad and all the other schools were staring at us. haha but we didnt care cause we were so happy. Then we did 3 cheers for Mrs Goh and the teachers. Then we all started crying but for joy. now we have a two week break from choir. Now that SYF is over i feel so lost... like theres nothing to do. But at least theres the concert. haha till my next post tata:)
---- us Kebaya babes are so hot!!! haha

2007-04-21T14:56:00.000+07:00

I was feeling so sick yesterday so i didnt post but i'm FINE today!!! yes! okok so this is how my super bad day went.
1)(Thursday)I slept with the aircon on the whole night( BIG no no)
2)(Friday) I woke up feeling lousy and ran 2.4Km at 8 in the morning despite my fellow choir member's good advice( another big no no)
3) i came in 6 seconds late for an 'A' (well this doesnt have anything to do with me being sick but i WAS rather unhappy about that)
4)I started feeling even lousier(for reasons unknown at that time)
5) slept through 3 periods ; not including recess
6) felt REALLY bad during recess
7) slept through another 2 peroids
8) felt better during choir practise (everyone was like super tired)
9)took a bus home at 4(very hot) and had to walk up the stupid hill that my house happens to be on
10) throat hurt REAL BAD; drank 3 bottles and 2 cups of water, 2 cups of soyabean milk(which i made cause i felt better) and 3 cups of honey water.
11) (saturday)woke up today with a fever and skipped choir( which made me feel quite bad)
12)went to the doctor and got a whole truck load of pills
13) slept for most of the day and helped cheryl's group(who came over) and studied a bit ( my brain couldnt take it
14) slept some more and woke up feeling SUPER GOOD!!!
YAY for me i'll probably get better by monday and go for SYF and take my stupid test and be perfectly FINE!!!! WOOO HOOO
haha i've ne ver been so happy in my life
Thanks to all the ppl for the advice and the calls cause i'm so happy!!! haha
Oh by the way i have to run the 2.4 again cause i didnt get an 'A' so i'll run with abby and then again for the third time for my second attempt. And after SYF Brit and i are gonna eat everything that spoils our voice YAY!!! haha ABBY!! ok that was random but haha i'm so happy!!!
Oh but i cant be too happy cause we still have a tough fight ahead Mrs Goh said that she thoght that the ACSI choir was really good but they only got silver and RI was very good too but they only got a gold so its really tough so must JIA YOU!
- i dont need his love right now cause i'm so happy

2007-04-18T17:55:00.000+07:00

Today was like quite a good practice. Mrs Goh was like really happy with our improvments(yay). On top of that i did my batik thingy and well...its rather ugly:( but is OK:) Tomorrow i have to do home econs so i have to make the curry thing today... I DUNNO WHAT A CANDLE NUT IS!!!!! i'm gonna die +i'm home ec rep!!!! what kind of rep am i??!!! sigh NVM choir is MUCH more important. 4 more days and we might meet on saturday. Dance got gold and they're really sad. but choir doesnt wish for so much. Competition is tough so we're not expecting too much... but gold with honours would be nice...
gtg do the home ec thingy BYE!!!

2007-04-16T21:27:00.000+07:00

Since my last post i have done alot of remodeling. Well its hard work for me so don't think its nothing. i can't do much till may ann helps me so yep. but its a great achievement yay! must be enthu. Art on wed choir everyday *sigh* (happy sigh) life can be ok sometimes... but just not now.
--...and it is because its till this day that he is still in my head, my thoughts, my every movement that i know i love him.

2007-04-16T20:39:00.000+07:00

okok so i haven't yet raised my blog from the dead but soon...i hope,
everyday's been choir choir choir and maybe some other stuff but mostly choir. so its like really xian.but i love my Kebaya so its ok. But i've been failing everything so i'm really sad and ya. sigh i dont want to tell anyone about my blog but i think its ok right now its just old. so i shall. haha.
Today's practice was like really good it started out really bad cause we were in the khoo audi but then we moved to the amphi where the aquistics were better so from then the practice was really good. Mrs Low and Mrs Tang like snuck up on us and listened, and Mrs Goh decided to listen and not conduct so some parts were weird.haha but it was really good, i'm so happy, so cool. SYF so soon i'm gonna die sigh. But jia you haha bye:)

--I'm still waiting for him to love me

2007-03-06T20:49:00.000+07:00

ok i've decided to revive my blog. i shall try and with may ann's help we will make a cool blog yay but maybe next week haha. yep once its ok then it sok i guess haha.kk

2006-09-06T19:12:00.000+07:00

2006-08-28T19:18:00.000+07:00

I! This is my first posty thingy. I dont think any one wil read it so it dose'nt matter... i dont really noe how to do the blogskin thing so steph has to help me. This blog is under serious construction..so dont come in. If your here too bad get out NOW for your own good who knows what stuff will happin.
---this useless news report has come from the hands of Teri...

p.s i cheated cheryl out of $2 today hahahahaha so happy lalalala