rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
-2:39 PM
I'M BACK!!!!!!!!!!people i know you missed me;)Going to America and coming back i visited 7 airports in 4 different countries in 2 continents.And through all the running for our lives and weird taiwanese guys i've made it back in one piece and seriously jet lagged.The plane from memphis to denver was delayed and our connecting flight from Denver to San Francisco was leaving in 45 mins.By the time we got to Denver the flight was so delayed that when we got off the plane we had -5mins to run 21 gates down to catch our flight to San Francisco and Aunt. Doreen was wearing heels!But they held the flight a while and we made it for final call.Whew, i was shaking so badly on the plane i was begining to think something was wrong, well technically there was but i meant other than missing our flight.But miracles happen:)Tomorrow i have a dg outing at east coast, have to find something to make...hmmm. also i have to make up 8 sessions of 3 tuitions in a week.
HOW HOW HOW?????i still have to get to school to collect the form so that i can go to Italy.Sigh, it's so packed holidays are so stressful, i'll be so jet lagged for all my tuitions.By the time i get over this i'll be leaving for spain and it'll start all over again.
Cheryl's coming home tonight,yay, i'm dead. oh well better prepare now.
Friday, October 26, 2007
-7:58 PM
LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!OMG i had the worst-best-weirdest day of my life.Let's start from school...My entire class(the bestest class on earth) spent the day playing wu liao games like double wacko, caterpillar,MUSICAL CHAIRS!!! Haha so retarded. So we planned the next class party( which i can't make:( ) and then at the end of the day we had to arrange all the tables for some exam and then Issy said we should have a group huddle. So anyone could say anything about 2 Pe then as Jillian was talking we all started crying. And for some reason someone went to the staff room to call Mr. Tee cause we wanted to say thanks and stuff. Now imagine you're a 20-something male teacher in a girls' school. Some girls from your form class come to the staff room red faced, teary eyed and call you down, what can you do? so you go. You HEAR your class before you get there. When you open the door the entire class is crying and hugging each other. They all look at you. Then someone says something, it's the class rep. " Mr. Tee we just want to thank you for all the things you've done for us this year, and that our class wouldn't be where it is right now if not for you." She says in between sobs. "well girls," you begin " you have been my first form class and i think you have all shown true class spirit." They start crying again.- did i says something wrong- you think. Unsure of what to do, you quietly slip out amidst the wailing of 38 girls.
That's probably how Mr. Tee felt.Haha. So after we cried ourselves dry for another half hour the class did our class cheer and sang some songs. But May Ann, Issy, Salome, Abby, Pris and I had a 3NGLES meeting. But i really really REALLY wanted to go with the class cause i would be missing the class party, but the meeting was 2 hours and ended at 3.30. So we redid the time table for the main event and discovered we had to come up with another proposal cause they wanted to change the format of the competition! Plus come up with a P6 "mini 3NGLES event" all by Monday!!! By 5 we were still there, stoning, but we couldn't leave cause we still had stuff to do. Nette told me that they were leaving at 6 and i thought i wouldn't be able to go and i couldn't help it so i started crying. when we could finally go our class had gone bowling at Kim Seng center. Only Issy came with me, Sally, May Ann and Abby all couldn't go and Pris couldn't possibly leave.Issy and i were so excited but we kinda didn't what floor it was on,and when we got there everyone was screaming(!) and all the stress just faded.Then we quickly went to change and bowled till 6 30. Issy and i were so hungry cause we spent the whole lunch time crying haha. So we ate seriously over priced fried rice with egg. Shona ate my egg yolk and it was very hot so she was like walking around with her mouth open and stuff!!! Every time someone got a strike or something the whole class would cheer, i think we were being a public nuisance even after that long winded talk by Mrs. i-forgot-who. So funny.I got 87 or something like that Shona got the highest 90 something NOT FAIR.Now is the weird part. When we finished, i was planning to go to Nette's house so we ran to Cassandra's car cause she was going to fetch us to Orchard MRT so all of us 7 squooshed into the back of a 5 seater haha. Then i called my parents to see if they could fetch me from Thomson Plaza cause i had to run some errands. Haha everyone in the car could hear me bargaining with my dad!When we go to the station i found out i lost my wallet!!! MAMA as could have guessed i freaked out! I called everyone Cassandra, in case i left it in her car, Vicki who was with Germ , Cheryl and Nadirah at the bowling. They went back to the bowling alley to help me look and missed their bus!!!!Meanwhile I'm stuck at the train station without a wallet and EZlink, thank god i had my hand phone. Erica, Nette and Issy were with me. They guy was nice and when i explained to him i lost my wallet he let me through. Then when we got to the platform we didn't know which direction to take! The train door were closing and we ran for it but Issy was taking the other direction, bye Issy. Now my wallet still hasn't been found and i was panicking, Nette was helping me call everyone.I still had to take a bus to Thomson Plaza so when we got to Novena ( Nette and Erica's stop ) told them i needed money but the train door were already open so Erica quickly stuffed a $2 note in my hand and Nette was like "good luck" haha.We always cut it too close.When i got to J8 Vicki called me to tell me she found it!!!! And she told me all four of them missed their bus!!! So owe them lunch haha!At the interchange...i had to change the $2 note for coins so i went up to this lady "Excuse me. do you have change for $2s?" she looked at me apprehensively,"um.. sure" she smiled. But she only had $1.70 in coins so i just switched it and lost $0.30 haha.so when i finally got to Thomson Plaza and got into the car i saw my new orange specks!!!! ahh haha anyway I've been typing for too long. but i love you Vicki, Cheryl, Germaine and Nadirah for missing your bus and finding my wallet! I love you Issy for coming with me to the weird place to meet the class. I love you Erica and Nette for coming with my on the train, calling everyone and lending me money. I love you May Ann for standing my pmsing for the whole year. I love you Pris for humoring my retardedness.
I love you Abby for NOT abandoning me at Raymond's. I love you shona for eating my egg yolk for me. and I love you Cassandra for giving me a ride and helping me look for my wallet. Oh ya and that weird lady who gave me some change.
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
-2:54 PM
WOO HOO!Ok not woo hoo but results are back, got 4 As, 1B and 2 Cs highest is math lowest chinese(duh) haha but it was quite ok lah, only one A1 but it's ok(nee). sheesh but life's regaining all it's precious order again after exams.The monotonous mind numbing rythm, but since i got an A1 for math i dont have to quit Raymond's and i dont have to go to that Bukit Timah hill person yay!I tell you, when people do well i do badly and when people do badly i do well. Is that like sadisitc or someting? And i got 20/25 for english essay, i wasnt expecting it though i thought it was one of the worst compos i had ever written so the examiner must be blind or has seriously been deprived of good literature. nope nope be grateful now. My tuition teacher is like down stairs so i'm hiding from her upstairs haha. Already got scolded for chinese. Great Eastern is in 21 days and i havent started training yet! I'll be missing friday's training cause i have choir! sheesh man, but we'll be voting and i dont know who to vote for?! Nevermind i shall put my mind to rest and go bake something good. bye!
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
-1:26 PM
Exams almost over! All that's left is English and who has to study for that?! yay! So i went to island creamery with Sarah and Vicki and Yan Tong and Serena. All toget her we ran across 2 traffic lights and one red man out of 4 haha. Cause vicki and i saw the greenman blinking so sarah said 'run?' and Vicki and i were like ok! So we were running and just when i got to the end of the pavement, the thing turned red! So what does that voice in your head tell you to do? STOP! But not vicki, so when i stopped Vicki crashed into me and serena crashed into her! And this 3 person collision was obviously a high impact one so i got pushed on to the road! And Serena and Sarah just ran across!!! Then was this guy (i think he was new) at Island and he was helping Min wei to scoop the ice cream and he didnt do it very well so the thing flew! haha it was so funny! Then vicki and i couldnt decide what to eat so we tried like 3 flavours and in the end we bought a mud pie! haha i think the woman was quite fed up.Anyway we all ended up eating a mud pie which was really good! It had 3 layers of ice cream and a cookie base(and when vicki tried to poke it,it flew on to the floor! haha) But Serena didnt buy anything cause she was broke so vicki lent her some money, and she bought burnt caramel which i thought was pretty eww. After that we spent like 15 mins taking 'artistic' photos of popsicle sticks! actually they were quite nice, i'll post them some other time. Tomorrow half of 2 PE is crashing to Abby's house and we're having a sushi party which was quite random (i think it has something to do with last week when we were having pe and i got really high with vicki so we went to everyone saying sushi!) yay so fun woo hoo going to slack now! Bye
Sunday, September 09, 2007
-7:56 PM
YES! i can finally post. There was someting wrong with my com. Argh.STRESS STRESS STRESS STESS STRESS. MAMA. sigh. hmm if you think about it mugging makes me feel good, like you're doing something.Spent the whole holidays mugging and mugging and mugging.But today i went to west coast with the youth to play ultimate frisbee! yay! too bad cheryl and i didnt get to go last week, they played captain's ball!!!!!! maaaaa.sigh. i dont want to go back to school! only two more weeks till exams!!! stress stress stress. hmmm math test tomorrow. tsk tsk. must study.I've been on a reading spree or something.I've practically read all the books worth reading in my house in a week. Though i still have a few more to finish off... must be the stress. sigh.anyway gotta study bye:)
Monday, August 20, 2007
-6:19 PM
i know i can't go on like this!
OMG what's happening to me! why me! but i'm...it's like i'm feeding off everyone's suffering and it's just adding up.Like every thread of my life is coming loose! i cant say 'why me' it's too selfish. But i cant help it, everything i thought was forever is disappearing! There's really no such thing as forever, things are just coming undone. i cant list out the problems i'm sure, and most are out of my control. But just to fix those that are in my control,it seems like a dream it's so...hard. My pillar of strength is gone and i have to be her's.
How can i do this, the least i could do is of course be a best friend, but i'm just not good at that, and i just feel so helpless, so useless. I really cant, i know, it's a sure fact, things WILL get better. But it's sure like hell waiting for it to get better. I know i shouldnt be the one to complain, what's my pain compared to her's but i feel so small. Like i just cant contain and up hold all these responsiblities, i think my brain's about to burst at the seems! i cant, and i cant tell her, she's already enduring more than me how could i worsen her load? what kind of friend would i be? But what kind of friend am i now?!i;m the worst kind of human being. It's like my little world was so fragile, just waiting for a disaster, and here it is. and everyone's just running around in circles screaming,how? how? i just cant do ANYTHING everything's just out of it. and i cant do anything about it.i dont know.
Monday, July 30, 2007
-7:50 PM
ok haha been too lazy to post, but i shall post now.
Concert was super good!!!!We started singing random songs at the end, and did the SC cheer like supper fast ah ha:)
And i just went to Abby's house to make the home ec thingy then we soaked our feet in her pool:) (nee)haha then we tried to cross over to the other side without getting wet, and then...i got stuck ah ha.The home ec thingy was really good mama! haha and Abby's sis and mom made muffins with pink icing(nee)hahayou know what, i'm still to lazy to post haha ok then byeee
